Further Comments: A pleasure to teach [POEM]


A pleasure to teach
     reads my report card every year
          a smiley face, as if this is favorable

A pleasure to teach
     means validation from mama and baba
A pleasure to teach
     means my anxiety is invalid
          because “you did so well in school!”

A pleasure to teach
     tells me i’m not fun
A pleasure to teach
     means i shouldn’t try
A pleasure to teach
     tells me i’m not smart
          when the a’s turn to a minuses

A pleasure to teach
     means obedient to a fault
A pleasure to teach
     means afraid of asking
A pleasure to teach
     means debilitating perfectionism
A pleasure to teach
     is a paralyzing curse of procrastination
          that haunts me to this day

and i know i have to do it all again next year.